Being a newly qualified midwife is an episode of ups and downs. Most of the midwives in charge make us feel inferior and like we didn’t learn anything at university. They belittle us and are not at all supportive, which makes us newly qualified midwives panic and not want to come to work the next day. Sometimes I get home and cry after work. It is really hard, but at least I do get to meet some good people, especially the agency staff who come at night. They teach me a lot, which is a relief.